Friday, October 13, 2006

freaky friday

I would like to cancel today. It's Friday 13th - do I need any other reasons? Didn't think so.
However, my illustrious employers would more than likely not be terribly understanding were I to simply leave, because believe it or not, I don't really have the authority to cancel a day. Not even Friday 13th.
But on the bright side, at least it's Friday, and the weekend is just ahead. Not that I have anything terribly exciting planned, but at least I won't have to drag myself out of bed to sit at my desk all day. At least not for another 2 days. Ain't life sweet?
It's been a rough week. All that's left of my 'discontinuation effects' is a tendency to want to cry with very little provacation. It's really difficult to maintain professionalism at work - especially during a busy and stressful week - when I keep wanting to burst into tears. I've managed to avoid tears by not doing a lot of talking. I'm sure all the girls will agree with me on this: when a woman is feeling emotional and on the verge of tears, the thing that will push her over the edge is the simple act of speaking. So yes, I've been very quiet this week and probably noticeably withdrawn. And now I need a rest - a break from holding in my emotions and smiling at people to make them feel more comfortable when all I want to do is throw a hissy fit. 'Cos seemingly unprovoked hissy fits also don't really fit into the whole professionalism thing very well.
But never mind, I think I'm on the home stretch and soon I'll be back to my vibrant, bubbly, pleasant self.
Um, ja.
In other news... nope, that's about it. I'm sure there was something else I wanted to say but whatever other thought flitted through my head when I started typing this has long since joined all those socks that seem to go missing in the wash.

17 comments:

anne said...

Hey darl'. For what it's worth, I think you're admirable for doing it.
Don't go crying now, though, 'cause then I'll start too. Yes, that's a threat.

Reluctant Nomad said...

I wish that I were able to cry easily as I know it is a great stress-reliever. But, crying too much and, particularly, not being able to stop involuntary crying, isn't good.

Hope you start bubbling over soon...that's bubbling with happiness, not blubbing. :-)

kyknoord said...

If it makes you feel any better, I'm like that most of the time and I don't have an excuse.

BUDDESS said...

I'll just have to come over there and then we can go and play a game of pool like in the days you were bubbly, vibrant and much more than pleasant. I have been feeling like I need to have a good cry the last couple of days and I can't. Gosh, I don't know which is worse. Wanting to cry and not beeing able to or not wanting to cry but not being able to stop. Have a lovely weekend and just put your feet up and relax. AND SHOUT BULLS!!!!!!

Bosbefok said...

Ahhh Mluv, you just cry when you feel you need to. My shoulder is always here and waterproof....
I wish i knew what it was that you cant find...
And tell Buddess we only shout for teh Cheetahs in this house !! :-)

angel said...

ja- i can relate- i also stop talking when i'm feeling "close to tears" which doesn't happen often, if i so much as open my mouth my chin starts wobbling and then i get that whole squeaky "... and... um... then..." speaking in broken sentences thing going! ugh!

Terri said...

Anne - it is contagious, isn't it?!

Nomad - bubbling... blubbing... hm, clever ;) I'll let you know when the 'l' moves.

Kyknoord - Not really (sniff) but at least (sniff) I know I'm not (sniff) the only one...

Buddess - Well now shouting (for anything, really) seems like a brilliant alternative ;)

Bosbefok - At the moment I'd settle for finding sanity thanks xxx

Angel - You know what I mean! And then the lip quivers and that makes you more p'd off and that just compounds the issue... {sigh} it's great being a woman eh?!

beadinggalinMS said...

This will make you smile. IT IS A GIRL!!! :)

all those poor lost socks in the laundry I do not know where they go but why does it always have to be my socks?? LOL :)

Jeff said...

Go ahead and throw a hissy fit if you need to, Terri. It can be a great stress reliever!

Terri said...

Beads - WOOHOO!!! I'm so glad for you!! That is good news :)

Jeff - It turns out shoppnig is pretty good for improving a girl's mood too ;) I feel much better today.

Mom said...

Terri, I hope you don't mind me using your blog-site, but I must just say a big thank you to all you bloggers for the birthday wishes. I logged on for the first time in days today and was very touched to find all those good wishes on your column. Thanks guys!
Terri, shopping does it for me too - must run in the family. Love you lots.

Spookie the Warrior said...

I know how it feels to be on the verge of tears - and I am not even coming off any medication...
But ja, just talking can bring on the waterworks, so what do I do - I carry on like nothing is wrong. Not healthy I know - but I am so good at it now. LOL!!!
Hope you are feeling better today hun.

Ben O. said...

Can't wait for the vibrant, bubbly self to be back -


Ben O.

:)

Kiwichat said...

Hello my friend. Well it just wont do that my dearist friend is not herself, what do you say to a good old chatting sesion on the phone. Oh have you heard of Skype as I've just got a laptop and have it on their and its great.Talking about tears / crying my weekend was fillied with heeps oh them as we had our precious dog Charlie put down.Ok so I'm still cring heeps, but then you know me. Tell your hubby TLC works wonders and a beutiful bubble bath with candles, champs and srawberrys is always a nice treat. PPS or grapes Hee he need I remind you. fondest love

Tammy said...

I was never a great believer in Friday the 13th until my second car accident on that date, luckily, not this year :) I think we should be allowed to vote it off the calendar and have two 14th's in a row!!

Terri said...

Mom - of course I don't mind! And... so it's actually your fault that I came home with yet another pair of new boots on Saturday hehe!

Spookie - Feeling lots better thanks Hun!

Ben - She's coming, be patient ;)

Kiwichat - Well m'dear, nothing like a lovely comment from you to get the waterworks starting again ;-) Skype is a brilliant idea - I'll get right on it!

Tammy - So when are you running for president?

Dawn said...

I know when I am feeling in a particular kind of vulnerable space,if anyone is vaguely nice to me, I start crying. I hope you feel good, and vibrant and .... well, what ever you wish for yourself to be feeling. Good vibes being sent to you from me.